Sunday, January 14, 2007

12:02 AM

i think new blogger kinda sucks.
im not sure if my posts can be read or not.

but all i wanted to blog about for nobody to read is:
my sis wrecked the printer again.
she should pay for the reapirs or buy a new one or stop using the com before she wrecks the new one like she did with the old one.
its usually the youngerkid that wrecks the com.
i dont know whats wrong with her.
bloody shit.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Friday, January 12, 2007

2:48 PM

camp was a blast.
i shall photocopy my journal for you so i dont have to write it out.
its damn luxurious.
i felt bad that i complained.
i felt bad about telling people not to step on me or something.
i feel so petty or kotak as my family call it.
and i feel bad.

throwing the rubbish and cleaning stuff isnt that bad once you do it.

rain and sweat makes my hair soft and silky for 2 days.
and it permantly turns my hair brown?
at the so called "disco" or after that some nerd or irritating person was saying to me.
"woah. did you dance?"
"err. okay lah."
"i dance like hell."

yeah sure you did
NOT.
what she did was stand with brooch lady, ms anoroxia, err and brooch lady-about-the-same-height-friends.
so i think you know what i mean if you know who is brooch lady.
what do you expect?

some were good dancers.
mrs soon and ms teh were funny.
serving breakfast is fun.
it takes one black sheep or one stupid sheep to condemn the whole group and make us look stupid.

me and rowena were playing footsie during a talk.
haha.
don get it wrong.
i was trying to pull off her slipper with my feet.
i think my coach (kenneth) is a good husband.
he said he misses his wife.
aww, how sweet right?

i think bestfriend has the hot for.
amanda has the hots for
i think kangaroo.j also must have the hots for somebody.
she has the hots for somebody like every year at camp.
how dumb.

i walked home in my poncho and splashed through the puddles.
it was fun.
if it was the old me, i would have likemoaned and moaned.
but after all the mud, if felt super clean.
even the mud felt clean.
the mus, not sand.
or sand in the mud.
i think the camp changed me.
i find some people inspirational or what they say.
it really made me look at my life in a different way.
i hope to meet more people like that.
i want to change for the better.

my toenail is gonna drop off soon.
it totally seperated from my skin only hanging by its hinge.

i hate those people who forget about their old friends.
not that i dont want them to move on.
but i duno, to me, my old close friends still matter to me.

mum's willing to but me melissa wilson slippers:)
thought im not sure i want it now.
i feel like a brat.
and i think the samuel and kevin belt is unnecessary now.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

3:16 PM

nothing much today.

e & a math teacher - mark chan.
sure fail math.
he speaks like a muffled machine gun and expects us to catch the bullets he throws at us.

err english- thomas thong
pe- ms koh.
oh how i hate her.

err chinese was well, sleepy and funny i guess to other people.
conversation me and mrs liao had.

"eh, she's liao lao shi right"
"yah."
"yah."
"liao lao shi!!!!"
"wo but shi liao lao shi, wo shi PAN lao shi!"
"oh SHIT." covers my face and laughs.

i yawned.
liao lao shi (lets call her lls for short okay.) :zhe wei tong xue, jian she me ming zi?shui mei ren shi mah?wei shen me na me lei?
me: err, xue min.
lls: orh! jiu shi na ge young zi se de bi xie me de arh?
me: err. yah?
lls:ni zuo wan ji dian shui?wei shen me na me lei?
me:err shi yi dian duo.
lls: oh , na ni jing wan ke yi shi dian shui mah?
me: ke shi ni jiang jiang jiang jiang jiang dao wo hen lei, hen xiang shui.
lls: oh! zao le! wo de shen ying xiang shui mian qu, na wo chang g na ni bu she shui zao lor?!"
you xie tong xue, zi ji shui wan que yao guai doa bie ren shen shang.
me: oh okay lor, wo zuo wan hen wan shui.
lls: na ni deng yi xia qu he yi bei ca fei how ma?
me: -??!

so after that the bell rang, and while walking out, i bumped into her and she like chatted with me till the lift can.
i know why i was tired.
i had training the previous day and i didnt have my afternoon nap/sleep.

so today, i was shocked.
A told me A likesB and B likes A.
so B and A are like together.
so A told me one of their conversations.
and boy, are they mushy.
err but they look like friends.
they dont act like friends when they are in private.
and the problem is they are supposed to be damn straight.
and i didnt know B was like that.
and i thought A was into guys.
so, as rowena said,<u> anything can happen, nothing is impossible

okay, camp's tomorrow.
mummy hasnt washed one of my sport bra yet, or get my disposable panties.

oh yah, and someone was o stressed she almost cried during the first period of math just now.
i mean, come on lah.
if you escape to the toilet, you're just gonna miss more explanations.
and this is like the first lesson.
what will you do by the next e maths lesson, or worse, AMATH lesson?

saima said my eyes look like my sis's eyes.
eew!
that means my eyes are far apart!
i got so scared okay.

bimbo clique are getting irritating.

germaine said that someone said that my class is damn fun and united..
err?!
maybe its someone from 3d that said that?
i guess she's mental then.

mr sim something, is mr christopher sim's brother!!
oh my.
mr sim is my ss teacher.
they look universes apart.

yeah, so anyone knows who is black pride on friendster?!
he keeps adding me.
i mean why would you wanna add a name?
(cause my friendster picture is just a name, and only friends can view it)

okay. this years camp like got very little things to bring.
me and rowena were saying how much more space we had in our bags.
well im not done with packing yet.
so i'll see how.

seeya on saturday ifi have the time!
i better get some rest or lao shi will call me to drink coffee and sleep at 10 again.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Monday, January 08, 2007

6:50 PM

okay i shall just do the gossips/news in red.

prayer service, audrey hepburn. did i spell that correctly?

err discuss camp item.
cat fight almost happened between rachel mel and foong yee.

me and shi han laughing over sick comics again.
shi han told me something gross about the fingers,
olivia tried to gong fu kick me and was caught by mr thong.
gees, i think thats childish.
not child like.

im such a loner in class.
nyaa talk.
im doing nyaa with rowena.
and playing karem with my aunt for 6 months.
actually, thats what we do everyweek.
but i improved tremendously last week or yesterday:)

cca, odelia and melanie and i had a nice and super funny chat.
odelia is so funny.
so is melanie
such good entertainers.
brilliant:)
my stomach ached so much after all the laughing.

okay. new year resolutions.
okay i know new year is over.
chinese new year then.

in random order:
1)lose weight
2)study hard
3)be more holy and faithful to god
4)try not to be a big mouth
5)grow taller
6)be nicer?
7)be a better person
8)improve my complexion
9)grow long hair
10)try not to be spoilt.
11)control my temper/change my temper
12)dont copy homework/try to do it on my own

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Saturday, January 06, 2007

6:51 PM

i walked to school for training today with melanie.
we were 5 mins late.

so mr lim directed almost everything in his "speech to everyone" to me.
and then i got alot of shit.
and coach talked to me personally.
i dont see the need.

but they we not the ones that made me have second thoughts.
i dont like people to use reverse psychology on me.
and i dont waver or change my mind if you do that.

the thing that made me have second thoughts was seeing that this cca can get quite alot of points this year.
and i need the points/.
so this is my plan if im not able to change/i remain in this cca:
go for training 3 times per week.
get the attendance point.
go for monthly shoot as often as possible.
get competition points.
and because i share pistol, while rouying is using it, i can study.
and i get the 15 sessions attendance points for sec 4,
then im nt going for that major competition.

but then if change cca, then so be it.
im kinda counting on god to like help me decide.
yes, i've been alot holier lately.
so i think or i know, he'll give me whats best.

so im just waiting and seeing.
i heard table tennis cca no vacancy already.
okay...
and i know of quite a few people joining media.
err maybe just amanda and anita?
and maybe badminton cca dont have vacancy?

but mr lim HAS to accept that i have church and cat class and a cat class attendance to complete, so he cant expect me to go to all the sunday competitions.
if he flares up, then i might as well change.

no god, no me.
no cca, theres still me and god:)

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Friday, January 05, 2007

4:35 PM

the one closest to you always hurts the most.
i really hate that you know.

i really do.
cause you care so much about them.

im sad lah, you flipping sucker.
you think i dont care.
but i do.
or i did.
it was hard for me too okay.
because you were my friend.
and i didnt know how to help you or what to do.
but you went the other way instead.
you really disappointed me.
and it hurt what you did next.
it really did.

its alright, soon i'll be out of your life.
completely if you want.

i cant sleep at night.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

3:31 PM

okay so today the prayer session wasnt very wonderful.

and my locker is on the top again!
yay! thank you lord!
i really am grateful.

so amanda told me that i was 2 cm taller than the height thingy.
but i dont think im 164.

i think zi qi is quite nice.
shi han is nice:)
and i was being sick while looking at her comics.
and she watches shaman king and get backers too!
i know what you're thinking.
you're thinking that im the nerdy type that loves animae.
and wears cildish and stupid clothes and wears my belt super high.
well, i might be.
but i dont think im like that

"yuck, thay showed her boobs. why is she naked and why dosent she have nipples?!"

okay. so shihan has quite alot of comics and each is like 8 bucks!
hmm. oit'll be like a waste of money if like she loses interest in them.
maybe she can like resell them for like 6 or 7 bucks each.

okay.
yixin has big mouth.
now like 1/2 the team knows that im quitting.
even mr lim.
but the mr lim one is my fault.
i sure hope i do quit.
then it wont be so awkward..
and you know what the best part is?
i have to go to training tomorrow and face everybody.
how sweet.
and then coach will know of it and i dont really see the point of going training now that im going to quit.
is it so hard to quit?
does the air rifle people make things hard for people who wanna quit?
ad some people will be very happy.
they can go on being their dream team without me.

and air rifle has taken so much away from me.
and now cause of trainings i keep changing my tuition time, my tuition teacher dosent wanna teach me math anymore.
air rifle hurts me.
physically.
i think im a good actress.
people actually ask me why i wanna quit.

gossips:
foong yee seems to be getting along with anita.

err, someone's gay.
so im kinda sad.
i wonder, are all pretty boys gays?

i saw someone making out this morning!
what a sight.

someone said jian huan is pretty.
err comments?

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Thursday, January 04, 2007

6:55 PM

did nothing much today.
but i think the mother teresa clip was touching.
i was touched by the "when i was cleaning the lepers, i felt like i was cleaning the wounds of jesus himself. how beautiful is that?"
something along those lines.
so noble.

err interview with thomas thong was lame.

i managed to ask ms chow about the cca thing.
so she said she'll check.
i hope i can still keep my points.
and mr lim caught me while i told ms chow i wanted to change cca.
i was damn freaked out ok.
but he just shrugged his shoulders.
i dont think i've seen the end of him yet.

i called the locker people today and think my locker was 311.
i thought it was 315, but i heard wrongly.
now im starting to wonder if 311 i heard correctly.
i hope its on top.
i've had my locker 2 years on top!
please let it be on top!

okay.
so gossips!
i know you like this part:
somebody in our school is mrs ng's daughter!
oooooooh. if you dont know who it is? wait a few months later. maybe it'll spread, maybe it wont. depending on which big mouth. but i definately wont be me, so stop asking.

the new transfer is foong yee, not foong lin, im sorry.
my mistake.
and she's really sweet.
and anita is acting all popular in front of her?
err i hope we can become really good friends.
foong yee i mean.

err the paris gossip i dont think is interesting.

okay so people have been asking me if my red (bestfriend, as amanda calls it)
talked to me today.
what if she did?
what if she didnt?

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

8:38 PM

i was trying to read the bungs and ahlongs blog.
and i cant understand what they're trying to say.

ad i rmb watching old school that night.
and i dont know why i watch it.
i dont get it.
i dont get what are they talking about, and
i dont get why im watching it.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

6:34 PM

no offence, but melanie's party was CRAP.
melanie's a bad host.
okay. i felt so akward with all her family members.
its like a family gathering, and with me sticking out.
bloody shit.
if you still hate me, fine, but you started it and its your fault.

so i went to town yesterday.
went to the john little building.
mum got me 7 pierre cardin bras and 12 pierre cardin panties.
and accused me of spening over 200 bucks.
and i thought she was gonna get 3 bras and about 5 panties only.
i got a denim shorts and a blue short surf shorts.
i dont know what those are called.

so lets see what i got over the holidays since its like over already.

-7 bras
-12 panties (i have like over 30 panties now.and i havent even worn like 1/2 of them)
-red snk belt
-(mud green) fox skirt
-red brazil fox top
-ten & co black denim skirt
-3 giordano (polo?) tees
-blue body nits (short surf shorts?)
-brown body nits (surf shorts?)

actually i thought i bought alot of things.
but now, its like not alot.
now for the gifts:

-tupperware
-metal boxes
-angpao(2)
-slippers
-card holder?

okay so school has started.
and its easy to spot the sec ones cause they're like standnig in groups like nomads around no where.

3d. 1 word.
BORING.
and i thought having rowena would be nice.
it was. but the class was still boring.
and im one of those boring nerdy people now.

gossips:(or talking as amanda and charlene calls it)
grace hasnt ditched me yet.
i wanna be the good person and not ditch her.
grace hates anita
anita is a loner (not like im not) and talks crap and tries to act popular?
alison got a headache.
i bet its cause she didnt get enough food
natalie went to comfort her. natalie is nice.
gen talked to natalie who is sitting beside me.
gen didnt even look at me or say hello.
so much for 4 years of friendship. (i think its 4 years.)
it makes me think that waht jillian said was SO RIGHT.
makes me feel naive.
clara's all blue today(matchy-matchy)
i think rachel mel has had too much sugar.
the new transfer's name is called foong lin(g?)
she's from nee ann sec.
i didnt even knew such a school existed.
and she got pulled away by angeline.
i wish her luck man.
cause i dont really like that group.
i saw 3bffs in the making.

photo taking.
i wasnt wearing the new blouse fyi.
i've been wearing that blouse since p6/
so the photograph lady adjusted my pinafore and blouse for me.
so embarassing ok.
and then when i went into the room, another lady went like "aiyoh. why you wear until like that?" meaning the uniform
i know i look weird in uniforms lah.
thats why its looks so untidy and stuff.
i lowered my belt in the hols.
i was worrying it was too low.
and now i think its still too high.
i bet my photo shoot was crap anyway.
i dont know why im posting.
no one even reads anyway.

i feel so odd, neither here nor there.
camp is gonna rock i hope.

i think pots and pans are good for fighting.
light, handy, and creates an impact.
and you still ca use then even if they're dented.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Monday, January 01, 2007

1:20 PM

okay i think charmaine tan from 6 peace has changed alot
i remembered in p schl she was telling me that she wouldnt wear dresses/skirts.
if her mum made her wear them, she'd wear shorts underneath.

but i look at her friendster now and wow.
she's so femine.
hmm.
she looks quite pretty actually. so does andrea.
people change.
and i think she changed for the better.
its nice to know that they 2 are still tight.

so i think about 2 nights ago, me and adeline wing were smsing each other.
glad to know that she hadnt forgotten about me.
we were talking about our p6 love people and how much they've changed.
and i totally missed out the oln p6love girls that were in 2D.
they have DEFINATELY changed alot.
but im like only tight with the 6love people from oln in my schl.
some of them.

and i was talking to see thor hui jing last night.
but i call her see thor.
remember? the one with hamters and nice parents.
yeah.
so we were chatting.
and we chatted about stuies.
and then i said so what if im in 8 subject?
my grades arent fantastic.
i failed like science.
and im in a lousy school.
so she said.
its okay if the scool is not good.
its okay as long as you get a1.
wow.
so sensible.
dosent sound like the see thor i knew.

talking about sensibility.
i dont think im sensible.
cause at the party or gathering last night.
i was swinging on the kiddy swing.
and i swing high if you know me.
so high high high.
and then my uncle told me not to swing so high.
so i just stopped.
and then later bryan said.
you know why he ask you dont swing so high?
and i was like no.
i mean. my uncle is this kind of proper people.
and that our way of fun dosent register with him.
so yah.
and bryan was like.
cause got alot of little kids runnning around and then wait the want to follow me.
and a load more crap.

and all the adults think he's liek a dream child.
get first in class
so sensible.
get along so well with the adults.
geta along with the kids.
err yah.
whatever.
and he told me the adults were boring and the kids were boring.
so hah!
he's deceived all of you.
and you all can like go and continue thinking of his goodness or whatever.

umm i was first in class once too.
in sec one for common test.
okay.haha.
once.
aiyah.
im nothing among my relatives.
im not know as melissa.
alot of people call me michelle.
i heard people calling me michelle like about 10 times.
even the kids.
i dont know why.
im known as michelle, or michelle's sister of dennis' child.
my sister is the artistic one.
well, im the antisocial one i think.
yeah.

so my uncle said that i changed.
not really my uncle.
my grandfather's nephew.yah.
he has lots of nephew.
since his mum had like what? 9 siblings?
and each sibling gave borth to alot more.
and my grandad has like err i duno how many siblings?
and each sibling gave birth to alot more too.
one of them gave birth to 11 children.
ELEVEN. imagine that.
and each of the 11 childrean has alot of kids too. i know one of them has 5 or 6 kids. yeah.
i think their minimum is like what? 3 i think.
plus theres still my grandmother's side to add.
any my mother's side.
thats why my family is so big.

okay. my lets just call him my uncle.
he said,
i was more feminine.
he said last time i was very fierce.
was i ?

okay but what i know is,
i am very shy with strangers and the opposite gender.
always have been.
bu tim not shy if you are my friend or if im close to you.
or if you're close family.

i'd like to know if i changed.
for the better or worse.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Sunday, December 31, 2006

11:47 PM

church in the morning.
then went to my grandma's house.

then went to my uncle's house i think.
he's my grandfather's nephew.
did i get that correct?
and it was awkward cause i wasnt invited.
but my aunts said it was okay and nobod would mind.
and nobody did.
thats nice.

so we swam.
or i did.
i did laps.
and then the little kids came and bugged me.
and then we had alot of snacks.

and then we showered and then had potluck dinner.
so after that, wehung around the playground.

so after that.
or after a long long time of crapping and entertaining little kiddos.
bryan (the cat class guy)
suggested we play truth or dare.
BIG MISTAKE
so okay.
the kiddos started shouting and screaming at i duno what.
and saying things i didnt get.
so the bottle spinned to bryan/.
and then i said to him.
or mouthed to him.
"say TRUTH!!"

okay. so i though he was brainless cause he said DARE.
so big mistake, and i expected it.
must be kiss each other or hug each other.
all the kids shouted.
"i dare you to hug melissa!!"
okay. so of course i didnt want.
i think he's sweaty.
and he's not a pretty boy.
so i said i object/
i know theres no such thing .
but he went along with it.
cause i didnt think we wants to hug me also.
so the little kids started pulling and pushing and attacking me.
like head butting my back dragging me towards him.

yeah, im a loser, im not sporting enough.
even though i was super nice to the kids and they did this to me.
so sad.
so its so awkward.
so i said "why do you want me to hug him?"
and i got crap answers.
so i said "i mean i dont like him and he dosent like me. so why you want us to hug?"
so they shouted and a neighbour came down and complained.
whoohoo?
so we gave each other a air hug?
i duno one of his crap ideas.
and we got away with it.
it so awkward man.
and i dont really talk to him.
yeah, im antisocial.
is he who came over and interrupted my chat about oln with my cousin.

ok, this is me making a big fuss again.
and i do not like him.
and he says im weird.
cause im scared of crazy people and children singing.

and next year's cat class is gonna be one cat calss.
so we're like gonna be in the same class a madeline bong.
im sad man.
im gonna be so tortured.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Saturday, December 30, 2006

6:02 PM

i think i sprained my back and my right wrist.
doing housework.
unecessary housework.
damn.
i mena you just vacumed and cleanedthe house this morning lah.
and you call me to do it again in the evening.
you take out all the heavy stuff and then call me to keep.
you call me to do orther people's work till i hurt myself.
i hope you're happy.

you're eldest daughter didnt do anything much okay.
crap shit.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Friday, December 29, 2006

10:07 PM

okay. i was trying to do the moonwalk just now in the kitchen.
of course no one was looking.
but imnot sure if im doing it right.
so someone HAS to look.

i like watching amanda dance or try to dance.
its really funny.
and it'll cheer you up.
you'll get what i mean when you see her dance.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

3:40 PM

okay so merry christmas.
its still one of the 12 days of christmas.
my christmas still isnt merry

yesterday, went to rowena's house in the early morning to give her a surprise.
apparently i thought i was gonna be late.
but hey, i was the first and we woke rowena up.
she's kinda goofy in a jumpy way.

so her sistercraves attention.
spent 3 hours there.
had brownies at home.
cake and coffee and chocolate at her house.
im a bad coffee maker.
but i'll get used to it.

if i didnt snack so much, i bet i could lose another 1 kg.
i havent drank milk in a long time.
so here are my options
drink, and grow taller, but fatter.
or
dont drink, and stay they shorty ass that you are, and dont gain any weight from the milk.

i got slippers and earrings from mindy rowena and sharmaine.
amanda says she got me a hair brush that is so janell-ish.
and lijie says she got me something, i have no idea what it is.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!I FEEL BAD I DIDNT GET YOU GUYS ANYTHING.yet-

went to vivo, i was the earliest, strayed away from the north court, and got lost, tickets for night at the useum were sold out.
went to plaza sing, got tickets, had lunch at kopitiam.
got mindy's present.
a pendant with matching earrings.
im not sure if she'll like it but i hope she does.
i so hate giving people things that they'll hate.

movie was worth watching.
rowena was corny
seriously, i dont do corny stuff.
amanda wasted her money in the arcade trying to win something.
went to wisma
talked crap.
wasted time while gina queued to get her phone.
went home.

i had a big row with my sis last night.
which ended with me compromising shouting "you know you're so bias?!!" at my dad.
she was being unreasonable.
i already said i wanted to watch, and she just switched the channel.
and my dad just let thathappen.
and she said she wanted to skip and watch at the same time.
a bloody flip lot of shit.

with the sound of your jump rope hitting the floor and your utterly disgusting feet slamming/pounding on the floor whats there to hear?
and your vision wont be that good either.
plus you're in the balcony, where like 1/2 the noise is cut off.

whatever.
my dad favours her more.
and if i become the disgusting freak she is, he'll regret it.
and she always steals my stuff.
and denys it.
even when its stuffed in her pencilcase with other moth eaten items, with my name on it.

im gonna but 2 locks, remember the damn number,
and lock up my cupboards.
im serious.
that'll keep her away from my pimple cream, my earrings, my clothes, and my accessories.
i dont like to share stuff with her since she dosent share.

my dad can go on favouring a dumb emo shit who hinted that she wont take care of you when you're old.

i was supposed to cut my hair today.
mum was supposed to make the appointment last night.
then today, she goes on as if it were my fault.
right.

i finised reading petty things.
nice book.

and im off to watch the show i taped last night.
and i KNOW my sis was late for work.
and she dosent know i know her blog.
lets see how long she can keep up with it.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

2:29 PM

i feel [pathetic and i feel like crying.
what happened to the 12 days of christmas?
i dont even feel 1 day of christmas.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

1:42 PM

okay i readpeople's blog, esp amanda's one.
she's seems to have a lively crhistmas and totally loves the class she's gonna be in.
plus, she's came back from a HOLIDAY.

i dont feel christmas.
so does gideon (cousin)
im totally not excited about my new class.
i dont think im gonna forgive anybody.
there.

boxing day today.
nothing to look forward to.
supposed to go out with my parents.
but you know thye dont keep their word.
so, disappointment.

no presents to open.
cause all open already.
i only got 5 presents.
2 of which is ang pow.
so heres what i got.

tupperware?!
2 metal boxes (for what?!)
a starfish necklace and sea horse bracelet. (quite nice)
though not even close to the metalli ones.

im such a sucker.

well, i know its not about the presents.

but my christmas has been PATHETIC.
i had like what?!
beehoon soup stuffed with ginger and no light sauce.
no fruits
no apples
no turkey, no ham, no wine.
no nothing.
christmas my ass.

sorry lord, i bet your birthday in our house is like.
boring.
its like we didnt even decorate the house or what.
nice one mum.

she didnt wanna buy ham or turkey or what even whn we were at cold storage.
im like so empty.
christmas, i dont feel you.

i feel like this:
song - where are you christmas, by faith hill (movie, the grinch)
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Oh

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

(the top part is true.
but im waiting for the bottom part to happen. but i dont think it will this christmas.
mum says we're having bee hoon soup or porridge for dinner.
okay, bee hoon can be your next staple food. but im not eating any of it anymore.
i hate bee hoon. always have, always will)

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is hereIf you care, oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
you will feel like Christmas all the time, oh
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You'll never fade away, oh
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
fills each and every heart
With love

hrmph.
so much for christmas.
poor lord.
our family has given him the worst brithday bash ever.
i bet even the poor people are feeling christmas.
im being such a superficial sucker.
all of you should like erase me from your memory.

i forgot, some of you already have.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Saturday, December 23, 2006

5:01 PM

i suck, i know.
sis sucks, i bet she dosent know.

okay im becomming like yanyan.
the only difference is that yan yan is obsessed about posting like 5-6 posts on her birthday.
well, i post about my annoying sis.
if i said sis you'd think it was a younger sister right?

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

4:48 PM

WHAT THE SHIT.
MY SISTER USED MY NAMET TO PIERCE HER BLISTERS.
AND SHE HAPPILY POSTED IT ON HER BLOG.
damn.

like how gross can she get?!
she's the insensible 19 yearold i often mention.
luckily, me, sensing something was amiss when i came back,
went to wash my nametag, and used tissuepaper to clean it.
well i guess thats not enough.
i shall ask my mum to sterilise it today in hotwater when she gets back, and hope it dosent melt.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

3:55 PM

err, question to amanda:
i dont get your blog. so is the person you're refering to nicole?
not nicole koh.
err. nicole something. i cant remember.
im interested..

im like the ultimate jerk.
mum got me the stuff i wanted yesterday.
most of it.
but she had to make a scene at everyshop, every place, everywhere.
so i got pissed.
her fault, and my fault.
but im still an ungrateful spoilt brat jerk.
and i bet she still thinks she's right.

i got my belt.
but its sold out everywhere so i got the orange/yellow/ i dont know what colour there is left on that belt from snk.
i got a red fox top.
and that fox promotion skirt.
and i found my denim skirt.
and i wanted that WH denim skirt, but mum said no cause i already had a denim skirt.
anw, both are nice:)
so when i said thanks mum in chinese, she yelled at me at the same time.
so we both shut up.
i got giordano tees too.
actually she wanted me to get them.
so i got a mickey, and miney(spelling? anyway i hate mineys she's so girly) and one of the 7 dwarves.(i cant rmb his name)

so i got my shopping and hope rowena did too in china.
mum says i buy so many clothes at one shot.
but i dont see whats the big deal since my shopping is like i get it altogether, and then i dont get anyclothes for the next 3-6 months, until i go shopping again.

its nice weather today.
i almost couldnt wake up.
the bed was so cozy.
so coach was there.
and she picked on me again.
you know what?!
i dont care what you say cause i dont now what you're talking about.
and i know there are others who dont know what you're talking about too.
its just that they, like me, dont tell it to your face.
so what if my journal is crap?
so wht?
at least i bother to do it.
and i dont know how to damn give a review on the shoot.
nobody told me how to
nobody showed me how to.
and nobody even told methat you wanted to collect the result slips.
damn.
im not such a freaking know it all you know.
shitface.
and i DID improve okay.
i wasnt born to please you.
i wasnt born to please ANYBODY
well, lets not talk about the sucker anymore.

so my christmas resolution:
1)dont be such a spoilt brat.
2)dont yak on stuff.
3)dont be a jerk.
4)i'll tell you when i think of it.

i wanna cycle to school.
but then, after i found that the bike was repaired, i found out that there was no air, and i found out that we dont have a pump since it was spoilt.
and i found out recently, like last night.
that THE DARN BIKE KEYS ARE GONE.
like is everybody and everything getting in my way / my dream of cycling to school?!
so i searched.
in the shoe rack, on the floor, behind the shoe rack, in the 45 pairs of shoes my mum has and the rest of the shoes.
it wasnt there.

so i concluded : that the keys were with my darrr(n)ling sister, somewhere in her super ~~neat~~ room.
and that she refuses to even try and find them.
denying it was just easier for her.

my dad concluded:it couldnt be her DARLING daughter.
mum simply found the keys an eyesore and threw them away.
(what a nice way to think of your wife)

and that just leaves me with more problems.

you wanna shout, i'll do it with you, and while im at it, i'll beat you:
"what time are you going to finish?"
"soon."
"what are you doing?"
"uploading pictures."
"for what?is it important?
-silence-
takes a look.
and no, it wasnt important.
"dont ask"
"why didnt you do it just now instead of watchin tv or do it tomorrow?"
"why cant i do it now?!"(stutters alittle.)
"because i want to sleep."
"how long more will you take?"
"WHY?!....CANNOT WAIT 5 MORE MINS ISSIT?!"(stutters alittle somemore)
"I WAITED SINCE 12 OKAY."
"THEN WHY CANT YOU WAIT LONGER?!"
"cause i already waited 20 mins and i want to sleep. you shouldnt even be doing this. its not even important.
you always do this to me. since you dont care, i also dont care.your 5 mins is up. off the com NOW"

MY SIS, IS A JACKASS.
she acts like an insensible 19 yearold.
if people could REALY see her.
you'd understand.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Thursday, December 21, 2006

2:40 PM

its the 21st.
of december.
rowena's gone on her trip.
she's coming backon the 25th.
and her birthday is on the 28th.
and i avent gotten her her birthday present yet.
i dont know what to get her,
im sharing with sharmaine i guess.
but i dont think im going out on chirstmas eve, christmas, and the weekends.
so i dont know how.

and i;ve got something planned for valentines already.:)
and knowing me, i'd better get started soon.

im going shopping tomorrow and then headed to the barbecue afterwards.
seems weird.
i feel so rushed, and i've got so many things to do, so many places to go, and yet, im not doing anything today,
slacking at home.

i feel such a loser when i send boliao smses that make people think im a loser.
i feel even more like i loser when then dont reply.
i should stop smsing.,

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

1:59 PM

yeah, its cold today.

and the day before yesterday i was thinking what ugly, weird, deformed things toes were.
nd the next day,
BAM!
the door slammed onto my toe thanks to my own forgetfullness.
so much for the thought.
so my conclusion :toes are sstill ugly weird and deformed. but they can hurt/.

so i was a good girl and went to training.
and then dad applied jambuk for me.
and hell, it hurt.
like the bloodclot/blueblack is like increasing.
and almost my whole nail is black now.
and dad says it'll pop out and the nail will drop.
im planning to use that to skip training.

however, im wearing SLIPPERS, and im going out:)
lets see.
i intent to get
new urban male slippers/ what have the got there.
since i have the voucher.

dmk slippers
s&k belt
rouying's cd.
rowena's present.
and i dont know what else.

oh i gotta head down to the library.

good news!
i lost 1 kg.
from 48 point something to 47 point something.
and i was 46 point something this morning.
i guess it was cos i havent eaten yet.
but hey, it comforting:)

but mum says i grew fatter.
and my sis got my to eat some sweet and sticky and very delicious thai candy my parents brought back.
i ate 3.
okayokay.
they're thumb size, and look like coloured pyramids.
okay and i was thinking :what am i doing?! its like 10.30 and im skacking on highly potential fatty food.
but hell, i ate sumore.

okay. so i was supposed to be studying after training on wednesday.
but i fell asleep, and woke up remembering.
and thursday.
isnt it today??
i woke up remembering it to.
but then again.
i think i studied enough
and school's reopening.
shouldnt i enjoy the last few days of the holiday?

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Monday, December 18, 2006

2:57 PM

okay so i see jillian watching my girl.
and i feel liek saying: hey! my mum has thatdisc.
and she finished watching it well before our exams.
okay thats the sucker i am.

amanda's back, rowena's leaving tomorrow.
and christmas is round the corner.
i hope i get loads of presents.
but i only manage 5-8 per year.
pathetic i know.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

1:59 PM

i dont understand amanda's posts.
but the states is fun.
i've toured it while i was a kid.
what a waste.
i like pretty boys:)

so i fell sick during my stay.
vomitted well over 10 times.
didnt take the jab at the clinic cause i didnt think it was necessary.
but then at night, i couldnt sleep.
and was thirsty
so i drank water.
and a few minutes later vomitted everything out again.
but what to do?
i was thirsty.

and its funny.
everytime my aunt catches me vomitting.
so at 4 am, she drove me to mount alvernia.
which is behind the condo:)
so i got a jab on my ass.
yes, ouch.

and the medicine bloody well sucked.

so cousin's were irritating.
and i escaped the beach picnic and the bbq dinner.
how fantastic.
really.

so i recalled the past.
met 9 years when i was like k1 i think.
during phonix.
if thats the correct spelling.
he said my pleats were pretty?
uh huh and then i dont know how my family knew.
and then my aunt named her son after him too.
how embarassing.

in p1
esther i forgot whats her surname but her chinese name is cai ling and she transferedschool when we were p2
she's the bestest friend that i could have.
we didnt fight no quarrels, she taught me to split, taught me maths when i didnt know.

so p2 she left. my bestfriend was lishan i think.
i still remember her.
and her sister was my sister's friend.
wei shan.

p3?
i was kinda proud and stuff.
i liked science.
i was monitress.
i was an idiot.

p4.
sis embarassed me in front of 9 years.
mistook some guy whos in my cat class now for my ex neighbour.
went into mrs leong's class.
still had chan ah moi for my teacher.
i think lishan was my best friend again.
and wynne hated me then cause of my stupidity.
saw esther in church.
but wasnt sure if it was her.
so went and stood behind her and tried whispering in her ear.
dumb of me.
but my sister instigated it.
she and her totally un idiot-proof ideas.

p5.
5 love.
huang lau shi.
went with jia xin and jolin and jun qian.
kinda suckers.
i was dumb too.
then went with michelle sim.
she was nice too.
then abigail migrated.
i've known her since kindergarden too.
and she was jobina's best friend.
china trip.
adeline fell asleep packing and somehow managed to tuck herself in bed.
me and jillian were room mates.
jillian ng.
nice mate too:)
no not as in mating season that kind.
and we really had cup noodles in a cup.
crashed out at mindy's room at 12.
and we got busted in jillian tan's room by yang lau shi.
haha.
and we all hid in the toilet.

p6.
i though i was matured.
they all make you think that way.
well, i was still in idiot stage.
and spiffs with sharmaine over rowena.
haaha.
i find that funny now.
then there was this everybod-hates- evelyn-leo saga.
and up till now, i still dont know why.
and we often when to sharmaine or jobina's house.
malacca trip.
my room mate was zhuo baby.
what fun we had!
haha.
she was thinking of sleeping on the couch caue our room was single bed for 2 only.
but i said dont be silly.
and she wanted to sleep on the floor.
then i just put the bolster inbettween us and we slept.
i duno why she's so umm weird abou ti?
i mean we're all girls what.
i felt smart when i came up with that solution/.

so then sec 1.
was an IDIOT.
still an idiot.
quarreled with amanda.
now i find it stupid.
and i think it was kinda her fault too.
and hse was actign stupid too.
so was i.
then the jasmine thingy.
oh.
i dont see it the way i see amanda's case.
she's still err. the one i dont like?

sec2:
umm.
grace goh saga.
find it stupid now too.
amanda saga again.
kinda stupid again.
rifle saga.
that's like such a waste of time.
jian huan saga.
and to all those idiots who think i left her/didnt want to "friend"her cause she's a lesbian,
good luck to you.
cause its not like that.
and i kinda cant remember much of sec 2.
funny.

okay. so my aunt is nice.
nicenicenicenicenice.
but her children areirritating.
i call her da kou.
its in teochew.
cause her name is hilda matilda lim/tay(since she's married to a tay)
so she gave me and my sis $50 for christmas.
usually i dont spend.
but then mum said yes i could spend.
but i dont think she meant it.
but im gonna spend it on things i like anyway.
preferrably on tops and slippers and earrings and bracelets.

okay. so i opened my wardrobe and see myself wearing all the smae clothes.
and i think.
some clothes i asked my mum to buy but then when i keep itfor a long time cause of duno what reason and the next time i wear it out, and it gets washed and stuff, i find it kinda ugly.
so i have loads of reject clothes in my wardrobe.
i want a shoe rack in my room.

so mum was reluctant to shop in bangkok.
and the ugly and too small slippers she bought, cost $19.90
wth.
and when i want to buy nice and affordable slippers like the DMK $16 + one she'll go nagging that i have so many already.
i need new outing shoes.
my adidias one, still looks new right?
okayokay.
its kinda 2 years old.
maybe 3.
i got it at th end of p6

i need nice sandals and cargo pants too.

my family says im pregnant.
cause of my frequent cravings.
and i thought i had dengue when i was sick.
i am kinda drama in a way huh?
though i cant act.
really cant act.

everytime i wear loop earrings or my silver bracelets or a ring or whatever i dont usually wear out,
i'll take it off halfway.
cause i'll feel that everyone is going "oh what has she got on her?! its terrible!!"
although no one really cares if i wear a loop earring or not.

so people, help me over come my fears:)

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Thursday, December 07, 2006

8:28 PM

okay. so im thinking about the team outing from last year that never came.

and im thinking of the past
how dumb/childish i was in sec one.
being all dumb and childish.

and then now in sec 2.
i've matured.
well, a little.
im no longer the arrogant little shit i was in sec one.
and i think again/
okay maybe i still am.
but not so much.

so i think i'll be a better wreck at sec 3?
or the everyone-hates-me-piece-of-little-shit.
i think the wreck is better.

i got my belts on the uniform altered today
using a sewing machine.
yay, and im going towear it to that the bottom is all the same length.
no long at the back short in the front kinda thing.
i hate it.
buthen.
the front will be quite low on top.
and then my second button'll be seen.
anyway, its not like you're gonna see something that you shouldnt see.
god why do i have to wear those killer blouses.

okay i realised how long my hand is
and how fat some people's HAND can be.

and i dont see why people go to the gym.
i mean its like.
if you dont have a trainer to teach you how to do the right things or something, you might end up fattening some part of your body you dont.
anyway i guess i said that cause
gym is not my thing.
and im not into gym.

okay. im thinking of getting a decent wallet.
mine's not a wallet.
i dont know the term for that.
and im lugging my luggage to my aunt's house:)
cause i feel like using it.
hey, nobody said you cant use luggages in singapore even thought you're not going on a holiday.
so im gonna pack my stuff in my bag.
bag, not luggage.
sorry, i meant bagS
and then when its all done, i shall put then im my luggage.
and then i shall lug it to my aunt's house.
aint it brilliant?
its this colour

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

6:51 PM

okay. theres one thing i dont get.
if the school is so proud of our ij uniform, then why did they invient the prototype and change our uniform?
maybe i should put that in a suggestion box.
and mrs chan probably wont reply cause she wont know how to answer.
so the people reading now, dont get me into a pool of drowming shit by giving my password away.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

6:49 PM

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

6:38 PM

okay. today i was playing with the baby from next door.
and then i laty down on the floor.
and my shirt was wet.
and i was like.
eh why wet wet one huh?

so mum did some checks, and the baby PEEDED alittle on the floor!
what the shit, i've got baby pee on me.
hmm.
i was so dumb to think i laid down on baby pee.
but also no smell.

i think im really dumb.
no, not about the baby pee.
i wonder why i blogged.
i started blogging again cause of
but i guess didnt mean it.
and i did it for
so yup, im wondering why i blog.
since no one reads anyway.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

5:00 PM

okay.
everytime i talk to this person, she tries to drag them away from me.
and then everytime i dont talk to them, sh edosent talk to them too.
what is she playing at.
does she treat it like a challenge?
she just butts in a pulls them away.
piss you.

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Sunday, December 03, 2006

10:36 PM

so here are the maybe-i'll-consider-these-names-for-confirmation list:
in random order:

fuke (FFFF-UUUKE)
scott
Eyon (EEE-YON)
Endas (enn-das)
Enoa(ennn-noah)
eshire (eee-sh-hire)
millen (mill-en)
milton

i think im gonna name my future child if its a girl: cortelle
CORR-TELL

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

10:33 PM

right you have time for "important people"
but you dont have time for unimportant me.
how practical.

and my sis bloody well sucks.
i was doing stuff on the computer
and she just went and i duno did what, then my stuff were gone.
how damn bloody rude.
and then she was mumbling and then i couldnt hear so i said "huh?"
and she was like "WAIT!!!!!!!"
THEN I WAS LIKE " I CANNOT HEAR LAH!"
then she was like "DEAF LAH!"
so my dad asked what happened.
and knowing he'll side her.
i went
"ASK YOUR PRECIOUS DAUGHTER LAH.
MUMBLE MUMBLE THEN EXPECT PEOPLE TO HEAR.
ALSO DONT WANT TO SPEAK PROPERLY THEN SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT."
AND THEY BOTH SHUT UP.
you think i dont dare to shout issit?
you think only you have the ability to shout issit?
you think i have to tolerate with your idiotcity issit?
FYI :I DEBATE BETTER AND MY VOICE IS LOUDER THAN YOURS.
my parent's other precious daughter is a bloody asshole.
it'll do her bloody well if her ass bleeds/
they treat her so good, (esp my dad.) and she acts all pityful and treats my dad like shit.

thursday, went out.
wasted my day at bloody chan borthers.
chan borthers suck.
i hate chan brothers.
i like ken air.
but they closed down.

i decided not to go to thailand.
cause:
1)budget airline.
2) no movies and food on board
3) damn squeezy
4) the itenery is boring.
visit orchid farm.
hello, singapore's national flower is orchid and you call me to go thailand to see orchids?!
why? is their orchids better?
more powerful?
man eating?!
and then go there and see elephants and tigers.
why? are their tigers vegeterian?
are their elephants belly dancers?
orchids, are orchids, elephants are elephants and tigeres are tigers, no matter which part of the world they are in.
and im not some 5 year old kid that'll be that easily deceived.
5)not much shopping.

so didnt go wisma in the end.
went to raffles.
my flower bangle - gone.
tried shoes.
dont have my size.

friday - went out.
went to john little (opp centrepoint)
tried bra and stuff.
mum's dead embarassing.
i bet the whole store knows who i am now.

then went to wisma.
and then on the way we stopped by other malls with bra sections.
and every section, my mum embarassed me and i unded up not trying on anything and end up glaring at the sales assistant and my mum.
so my mum went
"you know my temper."
and i , had enough went "you also know my temper."
so that was enough.
so she went and told tales to my dad.
and he blabbed on and i went "you better shut up."
dont judge me.
you should be there and see what was the situation.
so you better shut up too.

so what if im not your PERFECT daughter?
so what if im the "ungrateful" one.
you're not my parent either.
so mum insisted on having tea break when it was almost 7.
so she dragged hungry me all over the place.
and tried to delay as long as possible my dinner cause she was full.
and then she still ended up eating half of my dinner.

saturday.
dreaded training.
and dear coach, i still think you suck and i dont idolise you like some idiots do
and i think it was mean of you to laugh.
i bloody well hate pistol.
my shoulders feel that its gonna be dislocated.
and so are my elbows.
and you wanna know why im so "bo chap" acc to you?
BECAUSE WHEN I TRY, ITS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU.
SO I STOPPED TRYING.
AND DID WHAT YOU ALWAYS SAID.

stayed home and did homework instead of going out.
finally remebered how to do math.
fell asleep while watching tv.

now im pissed.
and im gonna sleep soon.
i cant stand living in this house with a rude, selfish theiving oaf.
you dont know how bad things are, so shut up.
she's no saint either.

okay and i hate the J's.
their out to like steal my friends?
its like when i dont talk to someone for very long, they dont talk to them too.
then when i start talking, they start too and push me aside.
dont try to act like some professionals.
i bet he'll start targetting you soon.
you just wait.
hell,i hate you guys.
im damn frustrated and pissed.

im gonna move out.
when i grow older.
and share the apartment with a friend.
or maybe stay with my grandma

went shopping with her today.
it sunday by the way.
and bought her stuff.
and she was happy.
she's moving out of my uncle's place.
so their hunting for a new apartmen.
but i suggested that they move back to their old one.
and get the cleaning agent to clean up the place and then re rennovate it.
since the bloody people who rented it didnt tae good care of it.

and the live in it again.
they've got 2 spare bedrooms, so i can go and stay there.
its more peaceful there without my family plus i'll have nice food to eat and free chinese tuition.
and it'll be a better environment to study.
i miss those days when i waked up extra early to go to the market with my grandma even though she didnt allow me to go.
i miss my grandma.
sometimes i stumble upon the "what if she dies?" art.
cause she's 72.
and i end up crying.

im really damn sick of my sis.
she's damn rude okay.
and she uses my things without permission.
use until finish also dont bother to return/ replenish.
im gonna get those bicycle locks.
and lock my cupboard
when i go out.
im serious.
im gonna go to the DIY shops
and get those bicycle chains.
think i dare not?

WATCH ME, CAUSE I HAD ENOUGH

Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

10:05 PM

so im thinking of taking up courses at the CC.
yep, im thinking pottery or french.
but i havent checked them out yet, and they dont seem to have pottery?

training today.
wasnt such a drag.
and i know my negativeness irritates celesther.
sorry dude!
celesther is such a nice person.
she makes me feel bad:(
but hey, i didnt say i was good anyway:)
and this line, pisses/irritates her even more.
haha.

yep, and she alwasy saves my butt in training.
like the time she covered up for me when i forgot to keep my rifle.
and then the time when my pellet was stuck.
and the time when i accidently pointed the pistol at her.
hey that was not on purpose. i just turned it around to look at the otherside.
and it was dangerous i know.
and then the time where my pistol wasnt screwed in properly.
and then today, i thought the pistol was malfunctioning.
but it wasnt after her magic touch:)

when theres something wrong in pistol,
we always go "quick call celesther!!!"
im glad she's found what she's good in.
i know she was kinda sad in rifle.
cause she was there quite long, and her achievements not really very high, then kana picked on my mr lim sometimes.
man, she's seriously a nice person.

so we came about the subject of cutting.
so i was like thats so dumb, and you know the usual if you know me.
and thn i think she got really pissed and irritated.
she was like "you must understand them, show them you care."
i as kinda shocked. but this is celesther.
and i wanted to say like "hey, im just saying only. its not like i will scold them or what right."
but she's so nice.
and was kinda pissed at me? so i decided to back off.
haha.

and im sad to see people getting vexed over money.
its like so unimportant.
like we all know money isnt everything.
but then without money, its nothing.
for the rich, money is not important, but for the poor, money is damn important.
cause this society is built on money.
so money is quite a useless thing, but yet its important.
thats why i dont like to see people getting vexed over it.

so im sad that a nice person like celesther is vexed over her poblems, which dont occur to someother people.
i feel really bad about it.
i really really really do.
plus i lost her lit book.
so i feel damn guilty about it.
but i tried finding it everywhere.
but i couldnt find it.
its not in any of the classrooms that day its not in the general office
its not with my friends its not in the locker its not at home.
i think someone took it.

okay so this was one of the conversations between me celesther and yixin during our etremely long break of about an hour?okay maybe not that long.but it wasnt short either.
me: celesther, are you holy?
celesther: NO?!
me: you seem a great deal holier than me. im like so bad and you're like so good.
celesther says calmly: i am not yet a true woman of god.
me: hmm. i have never in mylife heard of that phrase. my church dosent use that phrase.
celesther: true man of god? true believer of god?!!!!
me: nope, never.

haha. so that was kinda funny.
and it wasnt exactly the same conversation but its along those lines.
are'nt you forgetting that im forgetful?
funny, yixin never spoke.
hmm.
she's the listener.

me: you know what? i have never heard anyone badmouth celesther before.
yixin: yah. she's very nice what. also got nothing to badmouth.
yeah man!
thats so right.
celesther is the nicest person i ever met.
she's those kind of
i love my enemies.
im not making fun of her.
those previous things earlier also not making fun of her.
im praising her goodness:)
man, i really feel goodness flooding out of her.
okay maybe i dont.
and im not in love with her.
im straight.
or have you forgotten again?

so yixin was fun today too.
so was odelia and melanie and rouying.
yixin syas she wants to learn englishfor me cause i alwasy use chim words?
haha.
im honoured.
but i dont think my english is that good.
yixin is better, when sabrina isnot ordering her around.
so melanie and rouying are a fun pair, when melanie is not attacking rouying.

i did 1/2 hour of math today.
and i havent studied for the other subjects for like 2 weeks.
i mean, i just waste my days away.
and i found out, that christmas is on monday.
and theres trainnig on monday.
so im not going for training that monday.
no matter what.

so i find that im quite busy.
monday:
morning- training (9-12am/pm)
afternoon - tuition (2-4pm)

tuesday: free:)

wednesday:
morning - training.

thursday:free:)

friday:
morning- maybe have training if saturday dont have training.

saturday:
morning- usually have trainings, unless my have trainings on fridays.

sunday:
morning:CHURCH:)
afternoon/after church - grandma house.

err. okay, maybe im not the busy after all.
and im starting to like church!
maybe its the influence of celesther.
im starting to believe in god alot more lately.
like last time i was really afraid to be at home alone.
cause from small my darn sis keeps telling me scary stuff.
and then you know my imagination, it goes wild, and thinks of all the possibilities.

but now i tell myself,
theres nothing to fear when god is here.
and i feel happy, and all my fears have gone away.
and when i feel like giving up, i just think of god, and then i perservere.
okay im not too sure about that.
is either god, or me.
but the fears part is absolutely true.
maybe im on my way to becoming a true believer of god:)
i hope so.

okay so getting back to my day.
so mum wasnt at home.
so i watched tv, slept in the afternoon
then did math then watched tv again.
and i tried on mum's earrings.
i cant wear short danglies.
and mum's got metalli earrings!
and then she couldnt get mine:(

so im hoping that i can go to wisma tomorrow and get my mambo skirt.
:)
i hope have my size.
please let everyone who knows about mambo and gets its skirts are fat people.
super fat
like L or xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxL
i dont mind inbetween.

yep, and i wanna get my samuel and kevin belt too!
its new stock, and silly me was thiking it was old, thats why it was sold out everywhere.
dad says okay, so well go wisma in the morning a
then forkchive building?
in the afternoon.
i duno if its the right spelling or not.
i never even heard of it.
then after that i think we're heading down to raffles to get some bread?
im not sure if its from raffles.
and then we're sending it to my mum's friend for i duno what reason.

dad said okay.
but considering mum.
and she's damn stingy about train fares.
i dont think it'll happen.

but HEY!!!
she made me miss my pierre cardin sale.
cause she didnt feel like going, and i cant buy clothes on my own.
and then the metalli earrings are gone too:(
cause she dragged for i duno how many months?!

okay. so im kinda pissed at what mr lim said today.
mr lim: erm. shi ying will be leaving us. err sherlyn also gone lah .......
me: err that one ahh? (makes some drawing movements)
mr lim: yah ms ham.
me:(blurts out) HUH?! THEN YOU LET HER GO?!
mr lim : yahlah. then do what. (talks more about passion for air rifle.)
me: (shuts up.)
im thinking.
WHAT THE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last year i wanna quit them you talk so much.
then now they wanna quite you just let them go?!
why the hell didnt you let me go man?!

the hand that slapped both faces.