Saturday, July 15, 2006

5:55 PM

training.
i got beancurd in the morning.
went to school to eat.

and we had gym session.
i was quite excited.
till both of you killed my mood.

you're such a slug.
i hope you drown in your own slime.
i hope to drown you in your own slime.

its like. i didnt say i was fitter than you.
and you can say that to my face.
you're not very polite.
although i hate you.
i am being polite by ignoring you.
and you can say such things.
please.
we did more sets and heavier sets of weights then you.
and so much for boasting.
your shooting afterward was horrible.
and take a look at yourself boasting.
i feel like puking.
i've seen through you long ago.
i dont know why everyone still thinks you're the cute innocent little girl.
eventhough they've seen through you too.
drop your act.
my mentiality is much much much more stronger than yours.
so shut your trap, and swallow it.
you're revolting.
YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A SLIMEBALL.

and you are no better. you keep siding with her.even though she's in the wrong.
even though she dosent want to help you.
even though you know she concucted lies and thought she fooled you.
even though you knew she was lying to you.
why?
i dont understand.
and i cant stand you too.


and YOU.
you think you're so cool and all that.
with your too dumb actions
i hate you since i first saw you.
and i thought i was wrong.
but i was right.
you are so sickening.
you told me to ask melanie.
and i did.
but you say you told me to ask other people.
which you did not.
thats the second time this has happened.
and you want to say it, say it straight in my face.
and i did follow your dumb instructions.
and im not trying to be different.
you think you're always right.
and im not sorry that i bear a grudge towards you.
so deal with it.
cause it wont ever wear off.
you disgust me.

i would rather do gym sessions on saturdays before i train.
even if i have to do it alone
i dont want to see the whole lot of them.
especially her.

and to my dear leech.
im sick of waiting for you.
you failto notice that.
you dont even notice im waiting for you.
and when you do, you take your own time.
dilly dallying.
if you want me gone.
just say it.
and dont think its the end of what i have to say.
cause if i continue, itd be plain obvious.

actually i didnt hate the cca when i first got in.
i just didnt really like it and wanted to join other cca's.
but now. you all made me hate it.
every single one of you had a part to play in this.
im sick of the whole lot of you.
i DREAD trainings.
i HATE air rifle.

and i used to slam things bout and get very violent when im angry.
now i dont.
i just let it boil inside me.
and seeth with rage.
and start hating the whole world.

and i was supposed to go and buy clothes today.
but didnt in the end.
expected.
it has always been like this.
why dont you just give me the money, and i'll buy them myself.

and then i was supposed to cook what i was supposed to cok for the final home econs exam.
but didnt again as usual.and its not my fault.
and i got my dad to get bananas.
cause i thought i was cooking.
and its like everything that i wanna do has banana in it.
like.
glazedbnanas.
banana fritters
banana and bread pudding
fried banana french toast.

havent you thought that you had a part in making me the way i am.
you never thought of that did you.
you gave me so much misery and you caused me so much anger.
you made me the sad and angry and the girl who dosent really smile and the girl everyone hates.
even if im laughing away.
im still angry inside.
so scold yourself instead of me.
you made me the way i am.
thank you. cause
i've learned to hate properly.

i havent done that cause i know thats not the right thing to do.
if not, i would have done that when i was a child.

you ruin my day.
you ruin my life.
you ruin everything.


Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady