Tuesday, July 18, 2006

8:13 PM

i hate you. you're annoying and unreasonable.
i dont feel guity now.
i cant feel guilty when you treat me like this.
i never ever want to have meals at home.

anyway. i didt ea it. i just mashed it up.
and stirred it into the soup.
i just ate like 1 for show, and spat it out.
you think your so great and all.
right.

continue your daydreams.


Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady

6:47 PM

so today. people got booked and stuff.
haiyah. i dont know.
im not siding anyone.
but if you jut do your homework and hand in, there wont be a problem.

so lijie was sick today. but she still went for pe.
i hope you get well soon.
and she's not coming tomorrow.
and i realised my bra i wore is too big for me.
theres so much space in it, and its like
its voilently popping put of my pe shirt.
and thats not my boobs.
thats my bra.
okay. somemore crap.

then new south wales.
boring.
i slept.
then career guidance.
im excited about it.
cause i dont know what subjects to choose, and maybe if i find a career that suits me, i might be able to choose better.

and i dont like sherilyn.
she's so.
annoying.
i got so angry with her today.
selfish and self centred person.
idiot.

so stayedback to help them with their art and i was supposed to be studying and doing my homework.
and lijie paints in a unique way.
and i ruined alot of people's paintings today. im so sorry.
it wasntintentional.
i duno why i just cant paint today.
lijie was funny.
piang.
charlene was funny too.
damn sarcastic.
can be mrs ho's successor

then went to compass point to get flexible rulers
i got one for lijie too.

and dad gave me a servere scolding last night.
cause i didnt drink water.
i duno. he fills my bottle, and i come home with it almost full.
and he's going to scold again.
gosh. i better start drinking.

im starting to dislike snail.
she just dosent care about your feelings.
and she makes use of you.
and everything must be about her.
and its like.
i just dont want to quarrel with her and spoil our friendship.
i used to think that i can get along with her VERY well.
but that was last time.
and arent you a little unreasonable too?
now im annoyed and sad.
i duno.
im sad. i wish snail was better.

so now theres snail, leech and slug.
i have one more person in mind. but i cant find a name for her.

sometimes people say stuff to me. and they think i dont mind.
but i do actually.
someimtes.
and then i think and think about what they say.
hrmph.
but its not their fault.
im just sensitive.
and negative

i feel that im being used.
almost everyone is using me.
except maybe a few.
anyway. im being used everyday.
im used to it already.
i've just gone numb inside.
just do waht you want lah. i cant be bothered.

Rowena's a really really really good friend of mine since p5.
yup.
she's a true friend.
i cant wait to go to the nativity fun fair with her again!

im tired of all these. im going to bed.
i hope i never wake up.


Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady