Monday, November 06, 2006

6:22 PM

i hate this cca.
it makes my life miserable.
well i stayed on cause of the people there.
but look where it got me.
look what they done to me.
so now, i dont really care about the people who are willing to die for this cca.
weird, i know, but they do exist.
and those people who claim they love this cca to bits,
heres what i think:
you dont bail out on us when we are in an embarassing situation.
just because you shoot good dosent mean anything.
it dosent mean that you can be arrogant and push all that blame to me.
it dosent mean you can go snatching people friends and badmouthing me.
and i've seen through you.
at least it stopped you from ever bothering me.
and showing you're sorry and not saying it wont help.
it wont help even if you said sorry.
no use trying to make yourself a part of my life now.
no use trying to laugh at my sarcasm and trying to laugh at everything i say.
its not gonna work.
if you think that'll help, then you obviously dont know me.
you dont know MELISSA LIM XUE MIN has a heart of stone.
and dosent forget, let along forgive.

and of you think letting me know that the dear old pathetic coach is sad that so few turned up is supposed to make me feel guilty.
well, its no tworking.
it makes me feel disgusted and sick and un-guilty and angry.
cause you want me to waste my saturday, going out to nowhere to do nothing.
its a waste of time.
i made you see, that shooting is not my passion, and will never be.
when i be nice and show up for trainings, you say i made excuses not to turn up for the last few trainings.
well, let me tell you this.
i was sick.
alright.
thats the truth, and funny cause you dont recognise the truth.
but its alright. i dont have to feel anything cause i am NOT i repeat NOT guilty.
so i dont care wat you think and will not say anymore to you, cause i dont expect to change your wrong screwed up twisted thinking.

and well, if they listen to those wretches and sluts,
they're not my friends.
well, this is one bit i have to thank you for.
and you're not going to hear it.
and i hope all you sucky people will read this.
and i hope you cry will your eyes rot from all the liquid and that snails will slime over you.
cause thats what you do.
slime up to coaches and teachers.

joyce is right.
its a torture chamber.
and they told us traning is not compulsory.
well it turns out it is.
in a way.
that mr lim will be taking attendance.
i so hat this flipping cca.
they should close down.
and mr lim, well, he can rot in hell.

im so flippng pissed okay.
and i know its all talk.
cause i never seem to be able to change cca.

someone save me.
and theres like no othr suitable cca to change into?
not that this cca is suitable.
i mean.
evern trainings are on saturdays.
and its like.
saturday is FAMILY DAY.
okay you bloody know thats a sheild.
but its a FACT.
and MOE should close down this cca
or at least change the teacher and coach since they cant abide by the rules.
you're not supposed to have any school activities on saturdays.
okay. whoever is reading this, help me think of other cca's to join.
please?
im really desperate.
and preferable one with lots and lots of cca points.

okay so our dear captain just called.
and their planning to schedule trainings on saturdays at cdans.
which is in some farfar away place.
in which you have to change trains, and then when you reach there, change bus.
it takes about 2 hour plus.
around there.
yup, so i said i wont be free on saturdays.
and weekens.
and she stupidly asked me
"saturday morning?"
me:(points out that) "thats considered weekend"
"oh okay. (starts telling me about all the plans for weekend training shit)"

and saturday i go out with my parents.
we're erm.
BONDING.
yep, thats it.
improving our relation ship.
so thats there.

and sunday
i visit my grandparents.
i really do okay.
and church is on sunday.
so no go church= no faith = no god = no heaven = hell.
yep.
so no go church = go hell.
so mr lim should be able to cover that right?
no he wont, cause he's a moron.

and plus my grandparents are'nt feeling too well.
and i miss them despite going there weekly.
and i'd be really really sad if they passed on and i didnt spend enoug time with them.
i will regret.
and i dont wanna have regrets.
and their not ol' boring grandparents.
they are fun grandparents.

so if they died cause my spending time with them was occupied with training.
then evn mr lim dying wont help.
cause grandparents is PLURAL.
so mr lim is SINGULAR.
so even dying 2 times wont help.
cause
1) you cant die twice.
2)that scum's life isnt worth 1/100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
of either 1 of my grandparent's life.

and same goes for coach.
and you know what.
as much as you "FEEL FOR THE TEAM"
i dont.
and you can stop acting, cause as i said, i've seen through you.
and you wanna know what makes me different from you flipping cowards?
i have guts to admit that i hate this.
and im not afraid to show it.
this, is what sets us apart.
and at least my tongue wont go black from all the bootlicking.


and parents dont know how to be understanding.
they will just say they wanna complain to mr lim and all.
and where will that land me?
IN DEEP SHIT.
thats where it'll land me.
and shit isnt really refreshing and tasty and nice smelling and all, fyi/

you know what?
i actually feel im the luckiest girl alive.
what did you say?
of course i do-
of course i do NOT.
snap out of my dreams man.
i dont even dream such stuff
training = torture.
physical, and mental boredom.

and i so hate escape.
its such a lame place.
all that screaming over those mild mild rides.
and i almost dies there okay.
well, you know that thats exxaggerationnnnnnnnn too.
but well, my safety stuff came out.
and not only on one ride okay.
lots of them.

SO, SOME KIND SOUL, ORWHOEVER THATS READING THIS, SAVE ME.
i mean it.

AND TRY GIVING SUGGESTIONS OR TELLING ME WHICH CCA TO GO.


Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady