Wednesday, November 29, 2006

10:05 PM

so im thinking of taking up courses at the CC.
yep, im thinking pottery or french.
but i havent checked them out yet, and they dont seem to have pottery?

training today.
wasnt such a drag.
and i know my negativeness irritates celesther.
sorry dude!
celesther is such a nice person.
she makes me feel bad:(
but hey, i didnt say i was good anyway:)
and this line, pisses/irritates her even more.
haha.

yep, and she alwasy saves my butt in training.
like the time she covered up for me when i forgot to keep my rifle.
and then the time when my pellet was stuck.
and the time when i accidently pointed the pistol at her.
hey that was not on purpose. i just turned it around to look at the otherside.
and it was dangerous i know.
and then the time where my pistol wasnt screwed in properly.
and then today, i thought the pistol was malfunctioning.
but it wasnt after her magic touch:)

when theres something wrong in pistol,
we always go "quick call celesther!!!"
im glad she's found what she's good in.
i know she was kinda sad in rifle.
cause she was there quite long, and her achievements not really very high, then kana picked on my mr lim sometimes.
man, she's seriously a nice person.

so we came about the subject of cutting.
so i was like thats so dumb, and you know the usual if you know me.
and thn i think she got really pissed and irritated.
she was like "you must understand them, show them you care."
i as kinda shocked. but this is celesther.
and i wanted to say like "hey, im just saying only. its not like i will scold them or what right."
but she's so nice.
and was kinda pissed at me? so i decided to back off.
haha.

and im sad to see people getting vexed over money.
its like so unimportant.
like we all know money isnt everything.
but then without money, its nothing.
for the rich, money is not important, but for the poor, money is damn important.
cause this society is built on money.
so money is quite a useless thing, but yet its important.
thats why i dont like to see people getting vexed over it.

so im sad that a nice person like celesther is vexed over her poblems, which dont occur to someother people.
i feel really bad about it.
i really really really do.
plus i lost her lit book.
so i feel damn guilty about it.
but i tried finding it everywhere.
but i couldnt find it.
its not in any of the classrooms that day its not in the general office
its not with my friends its not in the locker its not at home.
i think someone took it.

okay so this was one of the conversations between me celesther and yixin during our etremely long break of about an hour?okay maybe not that long.but it wasnt short either.
me: celesther, are you holy?
celesther: NO?!
me: you seem a great deal holier than me. im like so bad and you're like so good.
celesther says calmly: i am not yet a true woman of god.
me: hmm. i have never in mylife heard of that phrase. my church dosent use that phrase.
celesther: true man of god? true believer of god?!!!!
me: nope, never.

haha. so that was kinda funny.
and it wasnt exactly the same conversation but its along those lines.
are'nt you forgetting that im forgetful?
funny, yixin never spoke.
hmm.
she's the listener.

me: you know what? i have never heard anyone badmouth celesther before.
yixin: yah. she's very nice what. also got nothing to badmouth.
yeah man!
thats so right.
celesther is the nicest person i ever met.
she's those kind of
i love my enemies.
im not making fun of her.
those previous things earlier also not making fun of her.
im praising her goodness:)
man, i really feel goodness flooding out of her.
okay maybe i dont.
and im not in love with her.
im straight.
or have you forgotten again?

so yixin was fun today too.
so was odelia and melanie and rouying.
yixin syas she wants to learn englishfor me cause i alwasy use chim words?
haha.
im honoured.
but i dont think my english is that good.
yixin is better, when sabrina isnot ordering her around.
so melanie and rouying are a fun pair, when melanie is not attacking rouying.

i did 1/2 hour of math today.
and i havent studied for the other subjects for like 2 weeks.
i mean, i just waste my days away.
and i found out, that christmas is on monday.
and theres trainnig on monday.
so im not going for training that monday.
no matter what.

so i find that im quite busy.
monday:
morning- training (9-12am/pm)
afternoon - tuition (2-4pm)

tuesday: free:)

wednesday:
morning - training.

thursday:free:)

friday:
morning- maybe have training if saturday dont have training.

saturday:
morning- usually have trainings, unless my have trainings on fridays.

sunday:
morning:CHURCH:)
afternoon/after church - grandma house.

err. okay, maybe im not the busy after all.
and im starting to like church!
maybe its the influence of celesther.
im starting to believe in god alot more lately.
like last time i was really afraid to be at home alone.
cause from small my darn sis keeps telling me scary stuff.
and then you know my imagination, it goes wild, and thinks of all the possibilities.

but now i tell myself,
theres nothing to fear when god is here.
and i feel happy, and all my fears have gone away.
and when i feel like giving up, i just think of god, and then i perservere.
okay im not too sure about that.
is either god, or me.
but the fears part is absolutely true.
maybe im on my way to becoming a true believer of god:)
i hope so.

okay so getting back to my day.
so mum wasnt at home.
so i watched tv, slept in the afternoon
then did math then watched tv again.
and i tried on mum's earrings.
i cant wear short danglies.
and mum's got metalli earrings!
and then she couldnt get mine:(

so im hoping that i can go to wisma tomorrow and get my mambo skirt.
:)
i hope have my size.
please let everyone who knows about mambo and gets its skirts are fat people.
super fat
like L or xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxL
i dont mind inbetween.

yep, and i wanna get my samuel and kevin belt too!
its new stock, and silly me was thiking it was old, thats why it was sold out everywhere.
dad says okay, so well go wisma in the morning a
then forkchive building?
in the afternoon.
i duno if its the right spelling or not.
i never even heard of it.
then after that i think we're heading down to raffles to get some bread?
im not sure if its from raffles.
and then we're sending it to my mum's friend for i duno what reason.

dad said okay.
but considering mum.
and she's damn stingy about train fares.
i dont think it'll happen.

but HEY!!!
she made me miss my pierre cardin sale.
cause she didnt feel like going, and i cant buy clothes on my own.
and then the metalli earrings are gone too:(
cause she dragged for i duno how many months?!

okay. so im kinda pissed at what mr lim said today.
mr lim: erm. shi ying will be leaving us. err sherlyn also gone lah .......
me: err that one ahh? (makes some drawing movements)
mr lim: yah ms ham.
me:(blurts out) HUH?! THEN YOU LET HER GO?!
mr lim : yahlah. then do what. (talks more about passion for air rifle.)
me: (shuts up.)
im thinking.
WHAT THE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last year i wanna quit them you talk so much.
then now they wanna quite you just let them go?!
why the hell didnt you let me go man?!

the hand that slapped both faces.


Fireman TOM & the Cranola Lady